Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.
Psalms 27:10
Hello Everyone, this is me again. How was your week ? Hope it was intense like mine ! But this is an another subject.
Today I would like to talk to you about something that has often worried me in recent years. Indeed, I went to many churches and the thing that I paid a lot of attention to the wife of God's servants. I saw in her, models for everything and it was not uncommon for me to copy their style or that I get inspired by her for the hairstyle.
I felt that if they had the "grace" of being "chosen" to be on the side of such influential men, it was that they were more virtuous, had done or had something more to be loved. The fact that they could be loved for themselves or for their character did not come to my mind. Yes I was 20 years old and my vision of love, only stopped at Hollywood movies.
In recent years, marriage has been an obsession for me. A blessing but at the same time an obsession. I had experienced a lot of failures and chaotic relationships in the past and I was waiting for the Man who could restore my dignity.
I thought that to be married, you had to be pretty, have diplomas, a good job, a car, be a virgin or have grown up in a rich family. I would like to add also even if it is a criterion for some people, it is not because you don't have all this, you don't deserve that someone be interested in you.
Later I knew that it didn't matter to whom God has sent you. Because the real one, will see beyond all that and it is a real grace.
All this makes me think of the relationship I had with God before knowing Him. For a long time I lived my life without wanting to hear about God, because I was not holy enough. So I thought it was not for me. I had too much guilt to approach Him. Many people came to talk to me about Him, but I was not interested.
I thought I did not have the right behavior to deserve that kind of thing, So I chose to stay in my corner. But what I didn't know was that God, in spite of all that I have enumerated, found worthy to sacrifice his only son for my sins and purify me with his blood.
By love.
It is no longer what I do or don't do that makes me deserve the love of God. As insignificant as I was, Jesus gave himself for me.
I just had to accept his outstretched hand and to have faith in him. Because for him I had value, and despite my weaknesses, HE LOVES ME.
I no longer had to feel guilty for my life, for my past, or to do a lot of things to make me accept Him. Just believe in him and he will take care of transforming me in His image.
Jesus is the man who restored my dignity and he chose me even before I knew him. I just had to trust him.
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